I can't believe it's March already. February felt like forever. Too much happened. Too many things happened I wish I could undo. But Match will be good. I currently don't have classes, just several exams and an essay. So I could stay up late and sleep in every day. I could stay in bed all day watching TV series. But that wouldn't make me happy. So I wrote a huge 'to do list' with the all things I've been procrastinating for months. Like do my taxes, sell some stuff on ebay, write down that knitting pattern I've had on my mind for weeks, organize my craft shelf and get a job.
And in between all that: study, study, study so I won't fail another exam. Which, btw, is 'no big deal' in Germany because we can take each exam 3-4 times. That's really weird in my opinion. I'm still used to the Canadian system where you either pass an exam and move on or fail and re-take the course the following term. But wasting up to two years just studying for the same exam over and over again? Depressing. Being able to retake the failed exam a couple weeks later doesn't make failing an exam any more bearable. Whether you were too lazy to study or all you could think about is how a loved one drew his last breath just days ago - failing gets you down.
But I don't want this to be a depressing post. March marks the beginning of spring; I can't wait for some sunshine, planting some vegetables, early morning runs and the smell of freshly baked bread in my apartment. I'm also planning on sewing my first garment this spring - as soon as I get my sewing machine back. (Which hopefully won't be within the next two weeks because it would make studying so much harder.)
Do you have any grand plans for March?
I completely sympathize with you, exams always seem to come at the worst time and they are so annoying to study for. But you are smart and hardworking, you will do great! I really hope that you aren't becoming depressed, it sounds like you've been going through a lot lately. I'm sorry. March will be better, I know it : )
ReplyDeleteThanks, Ivy :) I've had a couple of rough days in February but I'm doing so much better now. The prospect of spring (yesterday we've had the first day of the year where we've had blue skies and sunshine all day long. Such a luxury around here in winter!) really cheers me up and I handed in a paper yesterday that took a lot of my energy.
DeleteOh, Marie, I'm so sorry you've been having such a tough time of it lately. You got hit with a lot of very unhappy stuff all at once. It's a good idea to stay busy, but give yourself permission to grieve when you need to. Lots of hugs from me and the kitties. ♥
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